But the honest truth is, I have no desire to do any of that. Hosting my self and my family on a more grand scale has been my solace. My one and only goal is to cope through the uncertainty of what we are currently dealing with in our country. Just like many of us, I had so many plans for 2020. And now, they have been disrupted by this pandemic. My son is a senior in high school and he may not be able to celebrate traditionally. I was in the midst of making a career change that would have greatly shifted life as I know it and BOOM! That industry became one of the largest impacted industries.
There are so many things that I feel I took for granted. And just like that they were taken away. I will say though, this time has allowed me to stop and smell the roses. I am realizing more and more everyday that a lot of the things I put on the forefront can honestly wait for later. I have also learned just how important it may be to learn some new things in my mid 30's. Like combing my hair. Yes people, that is not my specialty but it may be a necessary skill. I also recently bought a gel manicure curing light because my best friend sent me a picture of hers but I never bought any gel so my nails aren't done either. All of this has been a wake up call to say the least.
I must say, I am a bit blown away at how so many things that weren't acceptable prior to the pandemic are miraculously acceptable. From employers who once said that certain jobs could not be done from home now allowing for a work life balance, compulsory school systems deciding that standardized testing can be skipped this year, to full blown church states who barely sell liquor on Sundays and after 9:00 pm now being fine with booze being delivered or picked up to go. Though these steps may be the exception, I believe they will alter life as we know it once the curve is flattened.
Now don't get me wrong, things have been seemingly poppin' because I am naturally resourceful and know how to turn Sh!t to Sugar! My kids are spending quality time together which has been awesome being as Kaelynn was super apprehensive about losing her brother to college and him being too busy to spend time with her.
So I plan to continue to utilize my therapist and therapy through hosting to help me through this tough time. And I will continue to hope that this will die down sooner than later.
Stay Safe,
Simply Johntae
